I’m not sure if it’s age, or it could be that I don’t eat right, and I don’t exercise enough, but damn, I’m just lazy all the time. I find myself looking so forward to 10:00 and then absolutely coveting my sleep time. Today I’ve walked a mile and a half on the treadmill, and I did yoga along with a DVD since I missed last night’s class. I had breakfast and I balanced the checkbook and I got my to do list going. I have the details of the offer I wrote last night all worked out and now I’ve got to go get signatures after lunch and then get it turned in. I have two things to do while I’m out, and then I’ve got the afternoon until about 6 to get the house cleaned. Dang, this house is an absolute pit, but I just can’t seem to motivate myself to do what needs to be done! It’s not like I don’t have time, I just spend so much of that time doing what amounts to nothing! I’m kind of a mess, but actually today I feel better. Wallowing, that’s what I’m doing. I sincerely hope that I can look back on these posts and see some kind of pattern, or sense. It certainly isn’t apparent now! Oh yeah, Beezer is a problem again. With his DUI he seems to have sunk into a deeper depression. I’m not sure what to do about him. I’m thinking of telling his dad about the DUI. I’d hoped he’d tell him himself, but that’s not happening.